Zeh Bloq.: please i just want to fucking die right now. »
…My friend Nick just died tonight of Cancer he’s been battling since 2006, my highschool friend I graduated with Kevin, just recently commited suicide about 2 weeks ago due to a break up with his girlfriend. It’s hard seeing you say all this stuff. And what you posted before,…
I’m sorry for your loss. Its just that I just ended my three year relationship a week ago and I’m having a hard time dealing with it. He is my best friend and I consider him my soul mate and I dunno….losing him was like losing myself. I guess I shouldn’t say that I want to die, it just feels that way. When I lost him, I lost the biggest piece of myself and i’m numb to everything. We’re supposed to get married in two years but I don’t know if thats going to happen now. I’m scared it wont happen now and its tearing me up. I’m a recovering cutter also, and its been hard to stop myself from doing it. I haven’t yet though. But yeah. My life story. I’m sorry again, my insensitive ass. :/
I also have just gone through a break up in June of 2009. We dated for almost 3 years and I felt the EXACT way as you do now. I know what its like and it really really really sucks. But hey maybe you two will get back together, maybe something will work out for you two. You can’t dwell and you can’t think of the two of you breaking up, it’s gonna make it a lot harder on you sitting there and thinking about it. You gotta get out and do things, and try to see things different. This could all just be a beginning to something bigger and better.
